Xmas shopping list: Free Hugs, check twice.


today i consider my
xmas list
arrange the words in my head
that will explain why
i have no gifts
that will explain why
instead i’m printing up pages
worrying over cover art
regretting that last latte i
didn’t need
wondering why i had to go so far
and beg for gas money
wondering why i ever did a fundraiser
to pay for a website
wondering why i gave all those books away
(but i know that one)
why i kept pushing that magical jeep
why i got others to push it with me
i mean, FUCK
i should have thumbed it
i should have followed the kids
& ran the jug around
stood waiting for the pickup truck
at the day labor
i should have taken up a
and either gone
all-out krishna
or hey, look at my tits!..
just some flesh that will
be gone
in barely a speck-view
of the universe.

my friend has cancer

reject the body.
reject the systems
that poison us every. day.
that disinterested glaze
slathered around all that
mind-numbing propaganda
hooked on the divide & conquer
as if television still only comes
in black & white
even the rednecks don’t want that anymore

reject any life that is about consuming
to waste
the actual parts that make being a
make being alive
make the very air you breathe
in your they set em up you knock em down
doe-eyed slavery
the cutest sheen of
a wonderful life
you’ll ever put a hashtag to

kids, i don’t know.
i think about all this
think about this community
all those tiny hands full of fight
how life is just too damn hard on people sometimes
how you can’t put those hands up to do anything about it
if they’re busy holding all those bags

let it go..
hold on only
to what’s

love you

Michele McDannold is the author of Stealing the Midnight from a Handful of Days, a book of poetry available from PUNK HOSTAGE PRESS. She was the Editor-in-Chief at Red Fez Publications for five years and is currently the editor/publisher at Citizens for Decent Literature. She has an extensive collection of flannel and rubber chicken heads. For more, please visit michelemcdannold.com.

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